Little wet tears on my baby's shoulder

I hear a cry of incredible pain. A shrill scream of uncomfortable frustration, with such immensity I can hardly resist the silent surrender to my curiosity. I see a face of pure emotion, mouth open wide, stretching the soft skin, leaving subtle creases of intense anger. Eyes sealed tightly with a tear welled up in each, and that button nose scrunched up, caught in the moment. The minute fingers a crushed in balls, dangling ferociously on the ends of restless, belting arms. His hands rub his ruby red cheeks and press awkwardly into his nose.

Then he is in my arms. I think of feelings similar; A girl, the other half of me, scrunched up to my chest, heart throbbing against my bosom, my arm tracing love hearts in her back, warm kisses on her forhead. A boy, kissing my shoulder and reminding me how much he loves me, heart joltingly revoltingly lovely, a hand on my neck and a hand on his belly, extended cuddles. A girl, sitting beside me, just existing and appreciating and loving and living, but being together, belonging, caring, staring, wearing eachothers hearts on our engagement fingers, effervescent smiles. A boy, prancing around like a fisk bitch, but caring through loving eyes, and being on the otherside of my fogged up window of confusion with a steelcapped hammer and some chocolate coated strawberries, lingering laughter.

But this, carried my heart hight, with much more intensity, through clouds of thunder, lightening and hail, with the burn of something mightier than a pen or a sword. Thin hair of such perfection, an object of beauty, combined with a soul of perfection, and outrageous screams. So I rock. Slowly upward, and down, from left to right, whichever way feels comfortable for him. Tiny fingers trace circles, and spirals around my neck, and grab for a clinging pinch in moments of hostile shreiks.

I feel as though I'm dancing, as a newly bloomed rose may dance in the calm summer wind, to the tune of my own heart beat, intertwined with his. I am alone, but accompanied by my own solace and a soul which I do not understand, and may not begin to comprehend it's great complex simplicities. I begin to hum. A tune to which becomes forgotten after songs of folding chairs, broken hearts, leaning on some other, and silent nights. His cheek falls upon mine, and I watch his eyelashes close softly in tired complacency. I stroke his flushing cheek tenderly and close my eyes in fine contentment.

His head slowly drops to the left, as his left hand clutches desperately at some finger. His breath is silent, and his lips pure comfortably to drool on my shoulder. I feel his legs slacken their grip, his muscles relax and his soul drift to a dreamlike state. I hum on.

It is time to farewell my new friend. I wipe away the tears and salivations from my shoulder and drift like a small lonely cloud to a place where I belong. My bed, full of pillows, soft blankets and dreams. Dreams that maybe someday I will hold something so closely sometime again, and feel such warmth and affection that I feel like crying and screaming just like him.