maybe, maybe not.

"You are not one that likes change too much or enjoys it when the boat is rocking unless you are at the helm. In this case, if you expect peace to prevail in love today, you may have to hand over the steering wheel just a little. If you don't, the tone you set today may affect you for times to come."

Naturally, I have to impulsively find a way to relate my vague horoscope to my everyday life. This one, however, fitted quite well. Because, I really don't like change unless I've got complete control over it, actually, I don't like much unless I've got complete control over it. Ha.

So, how am I supposed to hand over the steering wheel without exploding with anxiety? Hrm, I could try calming the crap down, and save a bit of worrying for something important, like starting my preliminary HSC or something...

But, being me, I still feel the need to plan something, which I more than likely won't go through with, just so I feel a little secure. So, here I am, planning away, whilst another part of my brain is convincing myself not to. It's a bit contradictory really, I'm sort of confused, but I think I know what's going on.

I don't think I should make a plan, because if everything's already perfect, yet hidden for the moment, then, what's the harm in letting it play out naturally? I think I'm going to try this, because I know that the best idea I have will come out when I feel it, and then it will be perfect.

Sometimes I worry though, quite a lot actually, that things won't be perfect and amazing and crap. But, really, if it's meant to be, then things will fit into place, and problems will be overcome and all I have to worry about is worrying too much.

that shouldn't be too hard, right?